my feeling before and after taking public speaking

I am a girl who afraid to talk in front of many people. I can’t even look into their eyes. It will freak me out and I will forget all the things I need to talk. I can’t even talk in front of one people. I will feel shy and stupid. The worst is I can’t even speak in front of my friends. That’s really embarrassing. If I have presentation in class, I will get nervous and start to talk like an idiot. Even waiting for my turn has made me feel dizzy and there’s a butterfly in my stomach. I will think that I’m going to fool myself in front of everyone. When it is my turn to talk, I will look down and started to read my notes. I felt like crying. That is why I will lose my confidence. I am afraid of looking stupid and what other people will think about me. But all this is before I learned Public Speaking with Miss Nisya. Now, I am getting better in speaking in front of many people. I have gained confidence in myself and I do feel quite comfortable in giving a speech. I can look into my audiences’ eyes and I don’t feel too nervous anymore. Even though there is still nervousness in myself, but once I went in front I realize I can talk clearly. I can talk once I get my point and can elaborate it without looking at my notes. Not like before where I talked with myself not to everyone. I do feel proud of myself. I am really thankful to Miss Nisya, lecturer of Public Speaking which had thought me much and helped me gain my confidence back. Thank you Miss for teaching me and my friends.